I’m enjoying the discussion we started on people-pleasing! Let’s continue our discussion about the 3 P’s (People-Pleasing, Perfection, and Pretending to be Superwoman) by talking about Perfection. What is it and how does it serve/not serve us?
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If you’re like me, like most people, human, you have a bunch of half-finished projects sitting around that you mostly intend to get to someday. We wonder how we can start something new when we have all these unfinished things all around us. In an amazing interview on MarieTV, Elizabeth Gilbert said “this is huge for women because it’s all rooted in perfectionism, which is, of course, the murderer of all good things. Perfectionism is killing joy, spontaneity, wonder, grace, humility. I always call perfectionism ‘fear in high-heeled shoes’ because it’s fancy. It’s like a really fancy eau couture version of fear because perfectionism can advertise itself as a virtue.”
You have an inner perfectionist if you put more time or more effort into something than is necessary. And it does seem like a virtue at first. Why wouldn’t it be a good thing to work hard at something and focus on details? As I was watching the video of Tanya talking about this trait, I immediately thought of my daughter’s last birthday party. What was important to her and what was important to me were miles apart. The amount of time and energy I put into planning every detail of that party shames me even 9 months later. I clearly remember my mother showing up, seeing me sweating and franticly trying to hang up more decorations as the guests started to arrive, and telling me to get a grip. I kid you not.
I’m not sure exactly who I was trying to impress with that party. I know it wasn’t my daughter; it wasn’t my friends and family; so it must have been myself. You know, the inner slave-driver. If it’s never good enough, how can you possibly stop, right? Like ever.
Since this is a known pattern, I’d already told my family that as soon as the party ended, I would need about an hour alone to recoup. Even that didn’t set off alarm bells in my mind. Why not just avoid the stress in the first place? (You’ll be happy to hear that this year, she is having a few girls over and we’re ordering pizza. Done. No need to consult Pinterest even once.)
Overdoing causes stress, which leads to all sorts of problems, among them weight gain and illness. By doing all these other things, we aren’t taking time to rest or spend time doing something for ourselves. I’ve also been known to take on a project and literally not stop until it’s done. I might be shaking with muscle weakness and about to fall down from hunger or thirst, but dad gum it, that garage looks amazing!
Some of this perfectionism comes from the need to prove that I’m not lazy, that I can make things happen. For some reason, and I think it goes back to how my dad encouraged excellence and accountability when I was growing up, any spotting of weakness, physical or emotional, makes me cringe, even in myself. I’m positive he didn’t intend that to happen!
Another thing Elizabeth Gilbert said in that interview is that we shouldn’t wait to put something out into the world because we think it’s not good enough. We’ve got to be brave, counter our own criticism, and just put it out there anyway. “If you can just finish something, you’re already 10 miles ahead of everybody else because most people won’t. And what will make you finish it is not discipline, but self-forgiveness. We all start our project on Day 1 with the same level of excitement, and on Day 2 we all look at what we did on Day 1 and we all hate ourselves. The people who pick it up again on Day 3 are not the most disciplined ones… they do what they can and forgive themselves and go and do more. It’s just a little bit of humanity toward your poor self.”
I have a paralysis with art right now. Sometimes I will get an idea, but before I can even begin, I’m afraid it’s not going to be “good enough” so I don’t even begin out of fear of making mistakes.
I know it’s ok to make mistakes. I know there’s nobody judging. Except me. I feel better having a plan. Having a clean house. Getting things done. However, I no longer think it needs to be all or nothing.
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I don’t have a problem with perfectionism, but I still struggle to finish things. Once I see something complete in my mind, I’m sort of done with it, I lose interest and I get curious about the next thing. But if it’s only in my mind, then it’s just me who can see it.
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I am the same way. I think maybe we’re just so curious about so many other things and we lose interest quicker than “normal.” We’re probably geniuses!
I’ve found perfectionism leads to procrastination – usually because it’s a task that doesn’t grab me. Delegation works well with such things (find someone who enjoys the job and they’ll do it a lot faster and better than you will). Thanks so much for sharing your insights, Naomi, to remind me to be better about how I choose to spend my time. Glad to hear this year’s birthday involves pizza and hopefully more fun for you.
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What a thoughtful post Naomi. When we can liberate ourselves from perfection and from self-judgment and fear of judgment from others life becomes exponentially more expansive and joyful. Here’s to parties that are lots more fun and lots less work – it’s the perfect example of what all of our life should be don’t you think?
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“putting to much energy into something”….I came to a realization after reading this wonderful blog post. I’m putting to much energy into the ‘perfect web site’. I need to let that go! Perfectionism is always swirling around in my head….I fight it constantly…let it go….let it go….let. it. go.
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Yes, and I’m finding that once I catch myself and tell myself it doesn’t really matter if it’s perfect, it feels like a huge relief.
I get it about the perfectionism trip, from many angles: as someone who once was mired in it for years, and now as someone who dances with it now and then but keeps on keeping on, making art that delights my soul.
When I get stuck now, I think, “What would my dogs do?” Then I imagine my dogs doing whatever it is I’m trying to do, and it cracks me up.
My current project is all about dogs and creativity — and I’m sticking with it well past Day 3. I am loving the process, though I have to admit I also can’t wait till it’s done! lol
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That’s an excellent way to tell if we’re putting too much energy into something! And I do love your paintings.
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Naomi, this is my favorite post all year. I am in awe of how it hit home for me. Please keep writing. This, insight of yours could make a great self help book of your own. I find that self exposure – the birthday story – hits home to others better than any other writing method. Thank you.
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Kimberly, you are so kind. Your complement will keep me going for a long time!
I love Elizabeth Gilbert’s way of seeing the world and am so grateful that she gets to share her perspectives with the world. I got to see her here in Minneapolis earlier this week, and she told all 700 of us that she was wearing a fake plastic hair bun because her schedule is crazy and she prioritized spending time with her Minnesota relatives above her appearance. I’m thinking about getting my own fake plastic hair bun to wear as a reminder to myself to lighten up, not to take myself so seriously and, as Liz Gilbert says, not to let fear drive the bus. XO
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What an awesome story! Love that!
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Thank you so much for the story of the birthday party, striving to be perfect! I can just see it in my mind’s eye. I can understand why you wanted it to be perfectly decorated, and wonder if maybe there were other mothers coming to it? Those are the people I’d most expect you’d want to impress. They are your peers, in a way. I envy people, like my sister, who can pull of a huge party like that and actually enjoy it. She was telling me she had 90 people come to her 50th birthday. That’s insane! At least, it is for me. I cannot relate to people in such large numbers. A smaller occasion is actually more fun, and I think your mom figured out that’s true for you too. 🙂
Separated at birth, what 20 years apart? I don’t know how else to explain it…
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After we chatted about this the other day, I am glad to know you have decided to have a low-key birthday celebration for H this year! You will LOVE how little time, energy, and stress needs to be devoted to it!
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