New house update #11: waiting for walls

Rain, rain, go away! We have had a l o o o n g delay for many reasons, but lately it’s been the weather. It’s rained so much that the breezeway is taking longer that it should.

I have been feeling discouraged and a little doubtful that our new home is ever going to be complete. It looks just about the same as it did 3 months ago. I’m slightly more reassured now, but we still do not know that it will be complete before our rental house owner comes home.

We cannot proceed with insulation and drywall until we build a breezeway connecting the house to the garage because our electric panel is in the garage. There was an error on the plans and they had to be sent back to structural engineering, who took 3 weeks to get new plans to the builder. That’s a lot of valuable time where nothing was happening at the house.

Then, seemingly out of the blue about a month ago, our Project Manager was fired. I am still relaying information to the builder that only he knew about. Every time I encounter something that is wrong at the house and I try to remember what he and I had discussed, I get more frustrated. I miss that feeling of reassurance, knowing someone was on top of every little detail. We had our communication worked out, which is something I’m working on with our new PM.

Finally concrete was poured for the breezeway, followed by a week of on and off rain, waiting for it to cure.

And so… I simply felt defeated. Is this house ever going to be finished? Here I am ordering throw pillows that match our future sofa when the house doesn’t even have walls!

I realize logically that this is not personal, yet it definitely does feel that way. A year and a half of being in limbo, waiting to feel settled again, planning and envisioning and going through all the paperwork and logistics of this crazy process… is just too long.

The idea of “home” is inherently personal. That sense of peace, completeness, settledness is what I’m yearning for.

And so, now when I read this Notes from the Universe that I’d saved from just after the storm, it resonates even more. It feels like a good acknowledgement of all the inner struggle and patience-cultivating that’s happening with me.

I should add that the builder has been very understanding and has completed everything in the interior that’s possible at this point in an effort to show us that things are happening and they are on top of all the little details. We have about 3-4 weeks until drywall, so they say.

For the most part, the design part of the new house has been exciting. And I’m not complaining about getting a new house. I’m simply tired of all the planning and foresight, of not knowing where possessions are, and of the interminable waiting.

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Let’s catch up on what’s been happening over the past month …

Tuesday, 1/29: Working with engineer to have proper dimensions for connection to back of house to existing garage. Once engineer drawings are corrected, concrete crew will connect house to garage. CMU mason will then be scheduled to create stem wall for us to put framing. Mechanicals, electrical, and low voltage all tie into service panel in garage. Need to discuss options for soundproofing and shade pocket change orders.

Thursday, 1/31: Finalizing all paint selections. For our interior doors, we compared Benjamin Moore Century’s “Obsidian” with Sherwin Williams’ “Black Magic.” At first, I liked the SW one, but when dry, the Obsidian won. It’s velvety smooth.

Here it is with our door hardware. It’s going to look sharp!

Much of our carpentry and a couple ceilings will be painted SW “Rainstorm,” which matches the kitchen backsplash tile and will be carried throughout the house in different ways.

Monday, 2/4: Met with builder to go over project with new Project Manager.

Selecting fabrics for living room furniture and pillows.

Thursday, 2/7: Wood slab for bath bench delivered.

Friday, 2/8: Low voltage walk-thru. Added more data connection points, carbon monoxide detector, driveway gate sensor equipment. Pointed out several changes, errors.

Monday, 2/11: Shower pans completed today. Called in for inspection tomorrow.

Tuesday, 2/12: Plumber needs to make some adjustments to shower pan and call back inspection.

Wednesday: 2/13: Met concrete company on site to discuss breezeway to garage. Apex dug grade beams.

Thursday, 2/14: Rebar installation today. Concrete scheduled for Friday. Exhaust fan in art room installed today. Hardware selections finalized.

After getting high prices from a local showroom, I ordered some hardware samples from Build.com and Wayfair in order to make our choices. Returning them all was fun, let me tell you. 😉

Friday, 2/15: Met with electrician for review of changes. Framer to be on site Monday to start on his changes and start to remove the doorway to the garage apartment. Concrete between house and garage delayed one day because concrete supplier canceled delivery.

Carpenter to begin work on extendable kitchen table.

Saturday, 2/16: Concrete between new home and garage for walkway tie in placed this morning.

Monday, 2/18: Met with framer to go over scope of work.

Wednesday, 2/20: Met with CMU block guy to go over scope of work at garage breezeway tie-in. Work to commence tomorrow pending weather. Frame material dropped off today. Framer to knock out all punch tomorrow. Low voltage company to work Friday and Saturday after framer is done with punch to complete changes.

Thursday, 2/21: Framing changes start. No exterior work due to the weather. Electricians scheduled to be on site tomorrow and Saturday.

Friday, 2/22: Framing nooks and blocking continues. Master bedroom furdown and laundry opening added.

Low voltage work continues.

Monday, 2/25: Meeting to discuss overall design for connection to garage – roofing, materials, doorways, windows.

Gas yard line installed.

Tuesday, 2/26: Electricians working.

Thursday, 2/28: CMU done! Breezeway window meeting with supplier.

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KonMari-ing my space

I’m starting the organization books with Marie Kondo because she is front and center right now with her Netflix show. I’d also already started reading Spark Joy before I thought of this experiment. (I’d also already cleaned out the kitchen and garage, but the book has given me lots more ideas for making the space more functional.)

Still, I think it’s important to mention that there are lots of choices out there if you’re looking for a decluttering method. There’s no need to do whatever is trending at the time. Find what motivates you and what system speaks to you.

Key Ideas I Like

KonMari sees tidying as putting your mind in order just as much as your house.

“Tidying up is far more than deciding what to keep and what to discard. Rather, it’s a priceless opportunity for learning, one that allows you to reassess and fine-tune your relationship with your possessions and to create the lifestyle that brings you the most joy.”

With much in life out of our control, it’s nice to focus on something that you can change. I have to say that “tidying” keeps me from wasting time and energy on things I can’t control. I can control what possessions I own and can decide to keep only the ones I truly need and love. I can control how I arrange my things so they bring me the most joy.

Decluttering is a simple way to profoundly influence our space and our spirit. I would even say it’s self-care in a weird way. There is an obvious connection between our physical surroundings and our mental/emotional feelings. I may not like our rental house, but I can arrange it again and again until I get the most possible joy from it.

Still a work in progress, but slowly the fridge and pantry is getting lovelier to look at. It does put my mind in order to have certain things together in uniform containers!

“The more textual information you have in your environment, the more your home becomes filled with noise. Just by eliminating these elements from your home, you can create an elegant space.”

Cereal boxes with words and colors… gone. Packaging on many items… gone.

You have permission to part with just about anything.

I like this one… I went through our boxes of photos, greeting cards, and other memorabilia (sshhhh… out of Kondo’s prescribed order!) and tossed about half of what was in there. Memory items can be hard, so when in doubt, I kept it. I was picturing myself at a much different time in my life, feeling grateful to have handwritten notes and special award certificates. There are some things I kept because “I might need it someday,” but most in that category I’m trusting that I could let it go, which helps me feel a lot lighter.

I got rid of a dresser that was warped from the storm but sitting in our garage for the past year because I couldn’t access it. I went through boxes out there one by one until I could put the dresser on the curb. The garage is neat and swept clean.

I sold a sofa, kitchen chairs, a step stool, and a folding table.

I also tossed old cosmetics and sorted like with like, leaving me with a clean and simple drawer.

Focus on what you are “keeping” rather than on what you’re letting go, creating a home where you are surrounded primarily by items that bring you joy.

I emptied our nightstands, wiped the drawer clean, and put back only what is essential for that space… in divided boxes. Now when I open the drawer, I see all the things that I love… pretty paper and pens, only my favorite book marks, the “good” lotion, with the tv and bed remotes in the back.

I took the huge messy pile of paper plates, various colored napkins, and plastic utensils out of my pantry and another cabinet, sorted them by type, and now keep them in the pantry in magazine holders. It is easy to grab a spoon and a yogurt when heading out the door.

“As we hone our sense of what brings us joy through the process of tidying, we come to know ourselves far better.”

These items were for sale on Zulily. Marie Kondo has inspired a whole new market for more junk to collect! I don’t think she’d be pleased…

I took out all our mugs and drinking glasses, recycled or donated the ones we don’t use or were not in the best shape, and really looked at what was left. I can’t say that our glasses make me happy exactly. Maybe someday I’ll get different ones. When, a few days later, SG and I were at Target, we found some cute BPA-free, cheap-but-sturdy plastic cups that we both loved, so we bought a few of those. They are the ones I reach for most.

We should appreciate every item we have.

“Our goal in tidying should be to create a living environment filled with the things we love. That is also why it is so important to begin the whole process by identifying what you consider to be the ideal lifestyle.”

I had my car washed and detailed. There is nothing in the car that does not belong there and I feel better every time I drive it.

“A joy-filled home is like your own personal art museum.”

Still a work in progress, but I decided to find some way to hang up my necklaces since I rarely get to see them. This may have to wait until we move to our new space, but I’m thinking about how to best enjoy what I have.

As we notice what sparks joy, we learn about ourselves.

“I can say with confidence that there’s no task more enjoyable than storing. You’re creating a home for the things you love while exploring their interconnections. While this may not seem to be concrete, this intuitive approach to storage is the best and most natural way to make your house comfortable for you. Tidying is the task of bringing your home closer to its natural state. So it’s a natural part of yourself.”

Keep like with like.

Above is a “before” and “after” of the bins I have in our mudroom area. Sorting and labeling these make a huge difference.

I streamlined our “junk” drawer in the kitchen. I took extra paper pads and pens out and stored them in the office.

I divided the kitchen utensil drawer by using leftover cardboard containers.

There is an end point!

The more you work through your house, the closer you are to a house full of joy.

Key Ideas I Don’t Like

There is a specific order to her process – clothing first, then books and papers, then miscellaneous (electrical cords, cosmetics, kitchen goods, food, cleaning supplies, laundry items…)

Kondo suggests going through things by category, rather than by room or part of a room. I have a compromise to that one. While I know where all my stationary and greeting cards are and could cull that all at once, I do not (yet) know where all my extension cords are. So I have been going through one small space at a time, and every time I find one at the back of a file cabinet or mixed in with craft supplies, I add it to my impromptu “extension cord box.” Once I’ve finished going through the entire house, I’ll organize and contain the extension cords somewhere that makes sense. My future self will not need to purchase another extension cord ever!

“There are two reasons you should tidy up in order. The first one is related to our capacity to identify what brings us joy… The second reason we need to tidy in the right order is because it eliminates wasteful purchases of unnecessary storage goods.”

This book goes into much more detail about that “miscellaneous” category than her first, with very helpful suggestions on what to keep and how to store it.

You have to pull out absolutely every item in a category.

This seems suffocating to me. Because of it, I notice that I procrastinate on tackling certain categories or spaces.

Her very specific folding requirements.

“When hanging clothes, be sure to arrange them so that they rise to the right. Keep the same category of clothes together: coats with coats, suits with suits, jackets with jackets, and so on.” She also says that dark colors should be in the back of a drawer and light colors in the front.

I have to say, this is growing on me. Here are our tools, hardware, and batteries, where divisions really help keep order. I’ve also been able to keep my sock drawer neat with these principles.

“Four principles: fold it, stand it upright, store in one spot, and divide your storage space into square compartments. These principles apply not only to storing clothes but to every other category as well.”

Basically, nothing should be kept near the sink, not even your dish detergent or sponge.

This is probably a sub-point for another key point, but I’m so shocked by it that I had to give it it’s own space! In our new kitchen, this might be possible… I’ll have to see. We will have an island that would probably look odd with a container of dish soap sitting in the middle of it, so I get her point. But how many people’s homes look like they are ready for a magazine photo shoot all the time???

Storage is only decided once the entire process is over.

“Only when you have finished sorting everything can you truly grasp how much you really have and identify the appropriate categories. Therefore, all storage should be considered temporary until you finish.”

I definitely have a storage bin addiction. I LOVE these clear containers I’ve found. After determining what I’m keeping in a particular category, I get so much joy from seeing it put away nicely, but where I can see everything I have. I just cannot wait to buy these containers. I do see her point though. I’ve been shuffling existing containers around to other rooms. Solution: put all storage containers in one area and “shop” from there.

An Interesting Thought: “Compared to the drama of reducing, where garbage bags pile up each day and your space undergoes a drastic transformation, storage involves quietly moving things around and finding joy in small accomplishments.” Very true.

The section about BECOMING A PERSON WHO MATCHES THE BOOKS YOU’VE KEPT.

Generally, Kondo believes that our possessions have their own spirits and should feel at home in whatever space we put them in, that we should even sort things by their energy. This idea seems to fall into those beliefs.

“When you’ve finished tidying your books, step back and take a good look at your bookshelves. What kinds of words leap out at you from the titles on their spines? If you have been telling everyone you’d like to get married sometime this year, but you have a lot of titles with words like “XXX for Singles,” or if you want to live a joyful life but own a lot of novels with tragic titles, watch out.”

“The energy of book titles and the words inside them are very powerful. In Japan, we say that “words make our reality.” The words we see and with which we come into contact tend to bring about events of the same nature. In that sense, you will become the person who matches the books you have kept. What kind of books would you want in your bookcase to reflect the kind of person you aspire to be? If you choose which books to keep on that basis, you may find that the course of events in your life changes dramatically.”

I have not tackled books yet, but I wonder about this one. When we move, most of my books will be in one place and I’ll try this experiment to see what they say about me.

P.S. I’d already read her Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up when it came out in 2014. Obviously it didn’t stick. 🙂

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Living room plans: the “before”

After the Foyer, the Living Room is the first room you see as you enter the house. Here’s a vague design version of what it might look like. I can only plug in a few stock pieces and colors to get a sense of what furniture may fit, which I am using as a guide. These pieces are not our actual furniture.

The floors throughout the first floor will be 8″ White Oak stained a light grey.

The focal point of the room will be our fireplace with the tile in this photo.

We’re very excited about our wall of windows.

I got an amazing deal on a floor sample of a sofa that I’ve had my eye on.

Currently looking at fabrics to use to upholster 2 chairs.

This fabric is the winner because it mimics our kitchen backsplash tile and goes with our side chair nicely too.

The shelving will look something like this.

Currently, I’m thinking of throw pillows, drapes, and blankets that will bring all these elements together.

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You are what you own (or, an experiment in decluttering methods)

Every New Year, lots of people (probably mostly in North America) set some type of organization or decluttering goal. Sometimes it sticks, sometimes not. For me, I’ve always loved getting my belongings into a pretty-looking storage container of some sort. Somehow though, nothing stays looking very good for long.

Since we are going to be moving again in a few months, I’ve already been working hard to pare down what we own so that the packing and unpacking will be as simple as possible. For example, I’d love to be able to take a container of labeled and organized spices from one kitchen cabinet to another and be done.

Coincidentally, Sweet Girl is ready to part with lots of young girl dolls and games as if she could care less. This is quite surprising given her earlier freak-outs if I threw away, well, garbage. She is so surprised and happy with the resulting space she has once she decides what stays and what goes. Now she’s helping me in other areas of the house. Sometimes she even comes home from school and asks, “what are we organizing today, mom?” and I have to find her a project. Luckily there are endless things to sort through right now.

You already know that getting organized and de-cluttering are two entirely different things. Sorting what you own and making it look pretty can be fun. Purposely parting with some of your possessions can feel like losing a limb. And yet, owning too many possessions (and everyone has their own just right set-point) leads to clutter.

“Why do we have 2 of the same DVD, 3 colanders, or 4 of the exact same grey t-shirt? Why do I have so many serving dishes that I rarely use? And how come it’s so easy to decide to buy something new?”

This is definitely a modern, First World dilemma. 2 generations ago, we reused tinfoil and repaired things rather than toss them and buy new. The fact that America today is all about consumerism and a more-is-better lifestyle speaks to the predicament we are in now. We got wedding gifts 18 years ago that I still haven’t used once.

Marie Kondo asks something like, “what is the life you envision for yourself?” My future self will not need to drain three pasta dishes concurrently.

The Experiment!

There’s Marie Kondo’s “spark joy” method and her new popular Netflix show based on her 2015 bestseller. There’s also minimalism, a slow living approach, the 1 in/2 out method, and some people who do a certain amount per day. I decided to read a few books on the subject in order to compare these methods and see what works best for me.

In all honesty, I’ve already started most of these and got overwhelmed and confused. So now I’m going to read only one at a time and then write about it.

I have not given myself too many restrictions. For instance, I’d already started going through my cabinets and drawers and will continue doing it as I read through all of the books. So this is not a scientific study.

The Purpose

How we spend our time says a lot about our levels of purposefulness and contentment. I am so excited to spend more time enjoying a serene home and much less time moving all the clutter from one place to another. The more things we have laying around, the more there is to dust, step over, cause visual stress, and for the cats to play with/eat/scratch up.

There are some enticing side benefits of living with less. More time. Less stress. More space. Peace of mind.

The Process

I am using some very strict criteria with all our “stuff.” Unless it has a specific purpose and is needed often (yes to batteries, no to snorkeling gear), it’s out of here. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve moved some things from house to house, never to use it once.

Each item needs its own home. And to make that happen, I need to know what I have, to create space in my drawers by eliminating about half, and to put some workable systems in place. That’s where I’ve been for about a month now.

I’m envisioning our new house and where each item will be kept there. It’s layout and the way we group and use things will be different from how we have it in our rental home, and that takes some thought. I also am planning to pack things for their future rooms, so something that may be in the office right now might go in our future upstairs craft closet.

Long story short, I’m thinking a lot about how I want our new home to be, what types of storage solutions will be easy to access, how much space we have, etc. I keep going back to the main purpose, which is feeling lighter and calmer by having less visual clutter and knowing where every single thing belongs.

Maintenance

Having children around complicates matters because they seem to come with a lot of little odds and ends. That board game that’s sitting under the coffee table… the pack of gum on the counter… the drinking glass on the bedside table. I am working on instilling a new habit of putting things where they belong (myself included). I think it’s David Allen who wrote, “touch it once,” meaning don’t take your plate from the table to the counter and leave it there to wash later… finish the movement. Rinse it or wash it and put it away. When you’ve folded your laundry, put it away in drawers right away. When you open a piece of mail, file it then. Deal with it one time only.

Yesterday, Sweet Girl and I took two very large drawer-fulls of hardware tools and accessories, sorted them, and put them into a drawer unit. It will exactly fit sideways on one of our Mud Room cabinet shelves where it will be accessible and easy to add more items to. The hammer and screwdrivers will hang on the cabinet door. All other big tools will live in the garage. I’ve got similar ideas for batteries, light bulbs, and any other “mud room” items.

The Books (in no particular order)

Off we go! I’ll be back soon with a report on the first book I’m reading, Spark Joy by Marie Kondo.

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Foyer plans: the “before”

I thought it’d be fun to give you a “before” and “after” tour of the new house. I’ve made so many selections that have yet to materialize, so this is a fun way to go over them and see them somewhere. I hope there will be “after” pics in about 6 months.


It makes sense to me that we start our tour with our foyer. Here’s a sketch from months ago when we were trying to figure out what type of window would go above the front door. The front door is iron and the windows will have Smart Tint film on them on a timer so that nobody can see in at night. We are in the process of wiring for a smart lock as well.

In the 3D design app, this is kind of what the foyer looks like, though it is open all the way up to the second floor.


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Above is the front window as seen from the upstairs loft. Lining the entry walls will be this blue grasscloth from York Wallpaper.

On the left as you enter will be 2 sconces on either side of a piece of art to be determined. Above will hang the chandelier.

The right wall will be home to our bubble mirror that I got when I updated my home a couple years ago. I have missed seeing it!

And that’s the foyer! Short tour today. 🙂

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January life and reading

I was tempted to read another “C” author just so I wouldn’t have two red covers next to each other. I am such a nerd!

Somehow January has already come and quickly gone. Here are the highlights:

The biggest news is that we lost our Project Manager for our house build. Apparently, he had not been a detail person and had let many things slide, mostly on other homes. I thought he was excellent, but I’m not the one in charge. I’m told we can look forward to faster progress now, so we’ll see. It is a setback in my eyes and a shock, but I’m meeting with the builder this morning to impart any unimplemented plans that the PM knew about but they did not.

It’s been slow-going lately and I’m a little bit down about it, but I know that once a few key things happen soon, we’ll be all forward motion. I’m busy with paint selections, furniture planning, and organizing our possessions, so I’ve been trying to ignore the rest.

We came home from New York City to discover that one of our cats had tipped over their water bowl and it had warped many of the wood boards in our breakfast area. So we are replacing and staining them at great expense. We had to spend a night at a hotel because of the fumes.

She thinks “Keep Out” does not apply to her

Also in feline news, our two cats took apart and ate most of a pill that I accidentally left on the bathroom counter. Since we didn’t know how much they ingested, my daughter and I ended up at an emergency clinic at midnight on a Saturday night. One ended up having tremors and definitely needed to be there. Another expense. Grrr.

Sweet Girl is selling Girl Scout cookies rather reluctantly. From her actions and my own frustrations with being a troop leader, I think this may be our last year. She wants to do well, but she also doesn’t like speaking up and asking people if they want to buy cookies.

I’m on the search for house hardware (door hinges, deadbolts, cabinet pulls, house numbers, vent covers, towel hooks, etc.) and paint selections for all walls and cabinetry. It’s been fun.

Before and after

I’ve been “KonMari-ing” my house, trying to pare down possessions. In our new home, I know exactly how much space we have and where each item will go, so I know we don’t have room for extra bags and craft supplies and every last extension cord. In other type-A-ness, I have a spreadsheet of the individual areas in my house, broken down into manageable sections, and I’m crossing off each cabinet as I go. I’ve given away, donated, and even sold so much already that I’m starting to see (and feel) a difference.

OK on to the books. I haven’t read much this month because of all the time spent decluttering. Oh and I discovered The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and have been binge-watching that. 🙂 Netflix, I cannot wait 10 months for Season 3.

The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating by Elisabeth Tova Bailey

Bedridden, cut off from the most basic aspects of life, Bailey observes a wild snail that a friend brings her from a nearby forest. She discovers a sense of wonder and patience and learns much about her own place in the world. A fascinating story about a snail’s anatomy, decision making process, movement, and amazing natural defenses.

“Survival often depends on a specific focus: a relationship, a belief, or a hope balanced on the edge of possibility. Or something more ephemeral: the way the sun passes through the hard, seemingly impenetrable glass of a window and warms the blanket, or how the wind, invisible but for its wake, is so loud one can hear it through the insulated walls of a house.”

How to Walk Away: A Novel by Katherine Center

Entirely predictable but great nonetheless. A girl who seems to have it all is suddenly in an airplane crash and loses her ability to walk. Insert self-discovery, rude but gorgeous physical therapist, some family dynamics, and you have the typical novel. Quick and fun read.

“If you’d asked me before the crash, I’d have told you that feelings were like blocks of primary colors: You felt blue for a while, then yellow, then red. But now I saw the emotional landscape quite differently—more like the pointillism of a Seurat painting: each color made up of many other colors. Look closely, and it’s dots. Stand back, and it’s an afternoon on the lake—all the colors relying on each other for texture and meaning.”

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We Are All Made of Stars: A Novel by Rowan Coleman

A nurse dealing with personal grief works in a hospice and interacts with the patients, often writing down their final thoughts and letters of confession. I liked how Coleman used multiple characters to weave together a story of their heartbreak and of celebrating life.

“Your psychic is your poet. Both when we read poetry and when our future selves are read to us, we want to feel less alone, and we want to see the world and our lives from a new point of view. When we get even one of those rich pleasures from a poem and its poet, it’s more than enough. But we hold our psychics to a different standard. We expect more. We expect proof.”

White Sands: Experiences From the Outside World by Geoff Dyer

Dyer travels to several exotic locales in this memoir and tells of his experience with a sense of place, purpose, and memory. I may never walk in his steps in Svalbard or in a rooftop bar in China, but his sense of intellectual curiosity, exploration, and his efforts to uncover a place’s meaning are the same as mine. Often funny, sometimes confusing, this book is a journey unto itself.

Future Perfect: A Skeptic’s Search for an Honest Mystic by Victoria Loustalot

I thought this one was a very compelling look into the modern world of psychics, astrologers, and shamans. Full of honest skepticism and curiosity, Loustalot uses her own experiences to test the information they give her. It’s a book about the choices we make and how we decide to live our lives. I enjoyed her point of view and the personal nature of this book.

“I am mourning, I am mourning for the life I once had. The exciting job that made a difference, that brought people back from the brink of death, the strong, handsome, brave husband who adored me. I am grieving for the girl who always knew what she wanted and knew how to be alive in this terrifying world. That girl is gone. She is lying in pieces somewhere and I miss her. I miss her and I want her back.”

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